Sometimes I catch myself, heart racing, fingernails chewed, eyes unable to pull away from a task at hand and that is why you see this new blog before you. Today I went into crazy OCD land and downloaded several photo apps and started "playing" with my blog. This is after I made business cards with my old logo, after I have registered for the big BlogHer12 Conference in New York this week and before I realized what I had done, I had deleted my last template. I started to go into complete panic, meltdown mode and instead decided to go with the change and embrace it a little. I'm not saying this is perfect and I feel a little stupid with a fancy romantic picture of myself on the blog, but in the spirit of letting go, I'm just going to run with this (even if it is totally off-centered at that is driving me insane!) Anyhow, I'm back and I'm ready to blog. Thanks for sticking with me or nice to meet you for the first time if you are just clicking away. This is a blog about me, as all blogs are. For years I have struggled to find what my "niche" is and for a long time I refused to be put into a category. If I get real honest, this is a blog about survival to recovery. Surviving the effects of alcoholism, surviving the effects of rape, and recovering to find the peace and love that exists within us all. Hippie-dippie, you bet. Do I also write about tramp stamps (Tramp Stamp Thursdays), politics, artists (Tuesday Treats) and the state of the union which is code for my impending bi-coastal wedding and do I instagram like a mo'fo? You got it. Welcome to the funhouse.