Monday, March 19, 2012

A Moment of Gratitude

There are certain things that make us better. Certain people, special places, activities, even a certain kind of music can shake out that better version of you, the one that's free and open and unafraid. The one that is in this moment and this moment only. For me, there are two "things" I can say unflinchingly that bring out the best of me- being around children and being at the beach. I don't often babysit anymore but when I do, what I appreciate is that kids take me out of myself. With kids, you can't be thinking about all of the things you have to get done or the job you wish you made more money at or the paper towels you need to remember to write down on your grocery list. With kids, what matters is that moment and choosing a crayon to color the cartoon parrot can be the most important thing in the world and I love being around kids for that.  They bring me into the present moment. And while I'm sure this will change when I have children and I have to run a household and actually be responsible for another human being, but for now, being around kids reminds me to be present and be grateful. Likewise, the beach has a similar effect. I don't know if it is the meditative sounds of the waves, or the repetitive motion of watching the earth give and take away, give and take away, but when I'm at the beach, my head seems to clear. I'm not sad or happy or angry because I'm not really thinking about if I am any of those things. What I am is just there and I'm breathing and I'm there.

I get perspective at the beach. I get space which allows me to connect not only with myself but myself in relation to the world. I'm reminded that I'm just one woman, that my problems are not really problems at all, that I'm so lucky to be given this life and this time to enjoy what an amazing place this is. I don't feel afraid. I feel open. And after a two hour walk along the shore, I just feel grateful. I don't have much else to write today except that, but I think it's important to say thank you when you feel it. So to this crazy, beautiful world filled with beaches and children and friendships and sea shells and waves that give and take away, give and take away, thank you.

4 comments:

daleboca said...

glad to hear you are on a break! SC? NC? I cannot remember.. I am melting (70 degrees! in NYC) and if you need any children to help you relax, I have 4 available ALL DAY tomorrow at day care and school are closed!:)

linzer said...

Thanks for this, Tony. A good reminder for all of us. I feel the same way about kids. Granted, I don't have any and maybe that's why they make me so happy!

Lindsey said...

Thanks for the comments!! daleboca, your kids not only keep me in the present but keep me on my toes! Love them!

Carmen said...

So nice! Beautiful picture too. And even though you might have a different perspective with your own kids, I think you will love having them and you will be a great mom