Friday, February 10, 2012

Planned Out

 How many plans and commitments can I fit into one weekend? A film festival, an article to write, two wedding venue visits in two different states, a birthday party, tutoring, a dinner down the shore, not to mention two books I agreed to cover. All I see that I will really get from doing all of this is a cold. Not to mention that my weekend started last night at the Soho House. The good thing is, all of this is fun, but it doesn't mean that I have the energy for all of this and even if I do, it doesn't mean I should do all of this! Sometimes I forget that I am only one person. Sometimes I forget that I only have one body, this body, and that I should be good to it. Sometimes I forget to schedule myself into my days, give myself an hour to sit and enjoy a slow breakfast or an extra hour of sleep by going to bed early, or time to sit on the couch and do nothing. Sometimes I forget that while all of my extracurricular activities are very fulfilling and a helluva a lot of fun, they do come at a cost. Sometimes I forget how much I really need 8 hours of sleep, sometimes even 9.  Sometimes I forget that just because I have one night free doesn't mean I should offer it to a plan, a job, a commitment, anything. I forget how much I love evenings where I just come home and Mike and I have a meal together. It's so easy to take for granted the quiet moments here. In a city where there is always so much happening, it's easy to forget that all of that will still be happening even if you take a few nights to do nothing. And one day I'm sure I will laugh at this post. Laugh at all the side jobs I juggled just to make it work here. Laugh at all the "plans" I had when it was only me I had to worry about. I will laugh at how serious I took myself and remember this time as the time in my life where I did get enough sleep. But right now, I have to say, I'm looking forward to those days where I have no plans because I can't have plans and where I am tired all of the time but with purpose.


daleboca said...

what did you do at soho house? looks cool.
you will always be busy and always have plans no matter what.. i know you!
enjoy each era for what it is, when you enter the next you leave this one behind for a good long bit:)

Lindsey Anthony-Bacchione said...

A friend of mine had his engagement party there! And you are probably right. We are cut from the same cloth ; )