Friday, February 10, 2012
Soho House. The good thing is, all of this is fun, but it doesn't mean that I have the energy for all of this and even if I do, it doesn't mean I should do all of this! Sometimes I forget that I am only one person. Sometimes I forget that I only have one body, this body, and that I should be good to it. Sometimes I forget to schedule myself into my days, give myself an hour to sit and enjoy a slow breakfast or an extra hour of sleep by going to bed early, or time to sit on the couch and do nothing. Sometimes I forget that while all of my extracurricular activities are very fulfilling and a helluva a lot of fun, they do come at a cost. Sometimes I forget how much I really need 8 hours of sleep, sometimes even 9. Sometimes I forget that just because I have one night free doesn't mean I should offer it to a plan, a job, a commitment, anything. I forget how much I love evenings where I just come home and Mike and I have a meal together. It's so easy to take for granted the quiet moments here. In a city where there is always so much happening, it's easy to forget that all of that will still be happening even if you take a few nights to do nothing. And one day I'm sure I will laugh at this post. Laugh at all the side jobs I juggled just to make it work here. Laugh at all the "plans" I had when it was only me I had to worry about. I will laugh at how serious I took myself and remember this time as the time in my life where I did get enough sleep. But right now, I have to say, I'm looking forward to those days where I have no plans because I can't have plans and where I am tired all of the time but with purpose.