Monday, February 13, 2012
Japanese Proverb: Shut Up
"If you sit by the river long enough, you will see the body of your enemy float by."
In other words, shut up.
Sometimes I can't help myself. I feel somehow wronged when I see what I think is a wrong done to another person. I feel compelled to say something, push for change, at least raise the red flag and say, "Something here is not quite right."
But if I look at what these impulsive comments or actions have ever in turn gotten me, rarely have they ever benefited me. Instead, I just look like the bullshit police or worse, a tattletale. I feel it is my job somewhere to "call it like I see it" never doubting that perhaps I do not see all of it. I take pride in what I understand to be an uncanny ability to see how things will not work out, how things will inevitably end, and how I can save a person, a situation, an experience if I just "speak my truth."
But who the hell am I?!? We learn things when we're young. And for me, I learned to observe people, to detect a lie, to sniff out the bullshit. Fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice...hell no! But I am starting to reflect a lot and I can see that this never works out in my favor. It just makes me angry or extra cynical and what's the point in knowing something if you can't really do anything about it. It just makes you feel shitty and lets you take on other people's problems that you can't do anything about. Somewhere I adopted some belief that if I tell people, then things will change. People will change. Things will look different. But that shit never works. We are all just doing the best we can and maybe, just maybe, I don't know as much as I think I do.