Sunday, September 19, 2010

odd years

in a couple more hours
i will no longer be
"28"
something about the "9"
in "29"
lends a weight i had not anticipated
there is the feeling of teetering on the edge of my youth
before taking the inevitable plunge into
my "30s"
a chapter that screams with more promise
than the twenties ever realized
and yet a chapter potentially so completely loaded.
i wish i had slapped the asshole last night who tried to pick me up
and then when i told him how old i would be turning
he replied
"29??...You're so old!"
i don't know whether he was trying to be funny or cute
but i did not get offended right away
i just thought
"yeah, i am old....finally"
and i no longer have to waste my time on niceties
or considering strangers feelings
when i blow them off at a bar.
maybe at "29," my honesty and aggressiveness will not be seen as bitchy,
but rather someone who has something important to say.
so get the fuck out of my way.
perhaps at "29" i will finally feel
that my age matches my experiences
that although i am still young
i am no longer very young
and i can finally be
the woman i have been meaning to be.

1 comment:

Carmen said...

that last line made me smile